The entries in this blog are really a sort of turning point. Even as I changed my blog address, I changed the way I wrote, the way I thought, the things I said, and, sadly, perhaps even the people who mean the most to me.
I cannot help but feel emotional when I read the past entries of things that were. Like looking at someone else’s life. Someone else’s happy life. I don’t know. I just feel really sad right now that things have turned out this way.
And yet I know I have no one to blame but myself. I think I should have been more understanding. More forgiving. I mean, shit, I’m arrogant as hell compared to what I was back then. Maybe that’s why those friendships have ossified. I want to be a nicer person, the person I was before 4 years of law school. And this attempt starts now.
If only I could take myself back to where we first began. Somehow, though, I have the feeling that I would still end up right here, regretting things of the past.