the way we were.

The entries in this blog are really a sort of turning point. Even as I changed my blog address, I changed the way I wrote, the way I thought, the things I said, and, sadly, perhaps even the people who mean the most to me.

I cannot help but feel emotional when I read the past entries of things that were. Like looking at someone else’s life. Someone else’s happy life. I don’t know. I just feel really sad right now that things have turned out this way.

And yet I know I have no one to blame but myself. I think I should have been more understanding. More forgiving. I mean, shit, I’m arrogant as hell compared to what I was back then. Maybe that’s why those friendships have ossified. I want to be a nicer person, the person I was before 4 years of law school. And this attempt starts now.

If only I could take myself back to where we first began. Somehow, though, I have the feeling that I would still end up right here, regretting things of the past.

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3 responses to “the way we were.

  1. yux

    I sometimes look back and wonder if i could turn the clock back 4 years, would things have turned out any different? And like you, I think the answer would have been no. So what’s left to do then, is to make sure we never make the same mistakes again, and always keep our eyes on the future. It’s sometimes hard to fathom that when all has been said and repented of, even God forgives us and what’s left is for us to forgive ourselves.

    TAKE CARE BABE!

  2. Caits

    Hmm. I agree with YuXin.
    Change is inevitable. One always looks at the past though rose-coloured lenses.
    I also do not think that you are ‘arrogant as hell’.
    *hugs.

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